When I was 17 years old, my mother died.

In a very real sense, I do what I do today because of her passing. 

Let me explain that.

Witnessing my mother die of brain cancer was so painful that I dissociated from the overwhelming emotions. I disconnected from my body and sought refuge inside my mind - although I didn’t realise it at the time. My father was too devastated, and my sister too young to offer support. Escaping the ruins of my childhood home, I finished high school and left to travel.

At 25, as I was finishing university, the past caught up with me. My neglected psychic wounds pulled the emergency brake: I got depressed. But I didn’t quite understand what was happening to me.

I tried fighting off my demons with psychotherapy and antidepressants, but the darkness kept coming back. Meanwhile, relationships kept failing. I was too scared for intimacy, since opening myself up meant facing my pain. 

Slowly but surely, I started searching for alternative ways to deal with my issues, meanwhile working internationally as a journalist.   

I found a good EMDR therapist. I went deeply into yoga and meditation. The profound practice of Transformational Connection brought much-needed connection with others - and continues to do so. Continuing journeys into breathwork, cold exposure and plant medicine opened up my body and psyche further. I also explored tantra, somatic resourcing and a wide range of other healing modalities. Whatever I could find, in fact, I tried it.

In short, I started tending to my inner garden, clearing away the psychic weeds. In the process, I ventured all the way back into my early childhood, uncovering the roots of my avoidant attachment style and feelings of emptiness, lack of safety and loneliness. And I turned pain into purpose.

And now? Now I assist people as a breathworker (certified at Adem&Stem), psychedelic guide and coach (certified Transformational Connection Coach, qualified Co-Active Coach). I facilitate Transformational Connection online and offline. I ran group trainings for men, and currently run them around the Presence Process. I published a book about my long healing journey with my father, and am working on a new one about my self-actualisation process.

But best of all: together with my woman, the love of my life, I’m parenting two gorgeous children, a girl and a boy.

My mission is to help people rewild back into their true nature, shedding the burdens of their past and building roadmaps to blossoming futures. I’m committed to keep sharing whatever valuable I (un)learn about myself as widely as possible. 

Just to complete the picture: I love community, learning, celebrations and everything outdoors. I’ve been surfing for more than half my life and will continue doing so for as long as I can.